Chronicles of a Sad Girl

  • There is a Light That Never Goes Out…

    It’s a hard thing to realize that you are the problem…that you contribute to the loneliness. If everyone leaves, no matter what, how much of that falls on my shoulders. Whether I choose bad people, or my attitude turns people away, I can’t just pretend other people hate me for no reason. I looked at…

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  • Mirror Mirror…

    They say that people around you are a reflection of you. Whoever you end up being in a relationship with, and all of the friends that you consider to be close, show you a part of yourself that perhaps you aren’t proud of. Today I learned about transference and how we project our experiences about…

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  • The S word x3.

    Suicidal thoughts happened at least once a day in high school but some days they consumed me. It was all I thought about. Who would I leave letters for, how would it happen, where would it happen? So, I started with the letters. I’d obsess over them so much so that I rewrote them several…

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  • The S word.

    Suicidal thoughts have always been normal to me. I was never accepted in any dynamic except by my grandparents and when my grandfather died, my young mind didn’t understand how that was any different from the abandonment I felt when I learned my father would never accept me. Suicidal ideation became more frequent after my…

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