Chronicles of a Sad Girl

Peopleing (v.)The act of going out in public with people. Especially useful when the one using it hates people in general. Lets discuss the fine art of peopleing. As a person who suffers from social anxiety, you can probably conclude that I am not a fan. And I definitely am not, but I also care about people deeply. If this…

Is there a difference between love & hate?For me, both are interchangeable. Hate is just masked love for someone like me who wasn’t taught there is a difference. I wanted so badly to be loved that I did anything and everything to matter to my family. To be perfect. But perfection isn’t attainable. I just…

Ahhh.  The weekend. Weekends are extra difficult to navigate when you suffer from social anxiety. I dread stores on weekends.  Too many people, too many sounds, scents….it all bothers me. I don’t choose to live this way.  I wish I didn’t care about any of that. Just want to be normal. Social anxiety is a…

My first waking thought is, “great. this again.”  Sometimes I wake up and feel like crying just because I can’t handle the weight of it all. Sometimes I do, and most times I stare up at the ceiling and replay every single humiliating, embarrassing and painful event in my life. Either this or drown myself…