So quick introduction: I have childhood traumas that manifest in everyday life.  Of course that is not the entirety of who I am, but for the purposes of blogging and anonymity, I’ll keep that description for now. That’s also the entire purpose for starting this blog.

I struggle with many mental issues, go to therapy and take medication for it all.  Still doesn’t seem to fully “fix” me, so I’m hopeful someone out here can relate.  Maybe I’ll feel less alone. So key things here, if you struggle with Anxiety, you came to the right place.  How about CPTSD yep still me.  Oh and how about depression? Severe depression? Unfortunately, still me. Let’s sprinkle in some childhood abandoment issues, less than perfect parents and some other forms of abuse I’ll get into at some point. 

This is me, broken but hopeful (most days) that one day I’ll feel whole, I’ll have people that care, and all the other shit that comes with being a normal individual. I don’t quite know how this works, and how people will find this, but I sure do hope someone is out there reading it. It may be for validation or to help others..or both. Not entirely sure what my motives are yet. Maybe it’s much deeper than either of those. I really just want to be understood and to feel that I’m part of this world. Isn’t that what we all want? My name is shadowgirl… Welcome to my Ted talk.